I didn’t write yesterday. I tried. I sat down and took out my laptop and then sat. It was 8:00 P.M. and I had attended 2 meetings after school, after bus duty. The first to share with a new teacher colleague and my pre-intern teacher a strategy of classroom management. We watched a little video, chatted and I shared the chapter. This was all brought on by my pre-intern delivering a lesson/ game and me watching my well-behaved class melt into blurting, cross-talking chaos. I basically lost my mind and had to right the ship.
I tried to do it with all the love, but I am sure it landed for her a little abrupt. After I finish this post, I will fill out her evaluation on her rubric. Great content, wonky management. Ugh. To be a pre-service teacher. I want to send her away with some deep ideas of what needs to happen with every lesson. My kids are already trained and respond quickly to my requests- that kind of chaos is hard to watch. She is a sweet girl, and I want her to be successful. Management is everything.
On Wednesdays, I also am meeting with my colleague-technically a long-term sub filling in a position for this year and hoping to get a full-time position. Although she has a certification, she did so through an alternative program and never did student teaching. She will be fine, but needs a lot of support so I am trying to give it to her.
Left to attend a dinner meeting with the widow my former colleague who passed away unexpectedly in the Fall ( who my new colleague has replaced) to plan for his memorial. All went well and I think I just added ideas and I didn’t volunteer for anything. Lots of big emotions. Draining.
By the time I arrived at home. it was 8:00 and I didn’t have anything left. I didn’t even read before bed which is unusual. This is a time when I “broke my streak” but it was in care of myself. I am up early this morning, fresher and clearer. Today is a new day.