Living with the burden of anger is not living.
There will be bad days; times when the world weighs on you for so long it leaves you looking for the easy way out….check your blind spot. See that love it still there, be patient. Every nightmare has a beginning, but every bad day has an end.
Everyone is blessed with the ability to listen.
Lines from the poem “Instructions for a Bad Day” by Shane Koyczan
“There will be bad days; times when the world weighs on you for so long it leaves you looking for the easy way out….check your blind spot. See that love it still there, be patient. Every nightmare has a beginning, but every bad day has an end.”
” You can’t control everything.” My Grandmother would say to me. I would chip back “So far I can!” Adversity and obstacles are part of life, but until you are faced with “the real,” the strength needed, the getting through it is incomprehensible. I have to admit, for the beginning years of my adult life, I was not faced with much difficulty. Or if there was, I remained unaware. I worked hard and did my best to care for myself and others. I think there was a “plan” I was following, but looking in retrospect, who wrote that plan?
There have in fact been bad days. A litany of them in fact involving death, critical illness, Cancer, cruelty, financial disaster, divorce, abuse and apathy. On paper, any of these would make even a strong person take pause, but in the last years, I have and am still navigating all of them. For sure I have had to enlist the philosophy of the Abominable Snowman in the 1974 movie “The Year without a Santa Claus. ” The song went “Put one foot in front of the other, and soon you’ll be walking out the do-oo-or.” It has been exactly that. Getting up in spite of overwhelm, in spite of sad, in spite of mad and controlling what I can control to get through the day.
Right when things begin to feel in control the tides can turn. They can and they will.
When you can compartmentalize the intense emotions, not dismiss them, but not let them take hold of you, you can gain some peace. That is where I had to begin. I had to learn how to take care of me and not give way to the tidal wave of chaos. I would not be of any service to others if I was a mess. I am for sure a work in progress.
Hope is that I can save myself, because there is more to come.